Let me start out by saying.. I have been on a low-carb, low-sugar diet for approx. 6 months. My daily food intake consists of 90% vegetables, 8% meat, and 2% fat. So, I eat pretty healthy for the most part…
During my life, I have always heard of people “craving” certain foods. Like craving it to the point that they are just not satisfied with anything until they have that food. I have never actually had a craving for anything food-wise, until now. I never understood that absolute need for food. But, for whatever reason, for the last week I have been craving peanut butter. And I mean that I fucking NEED it. Lol. Peanut butter is in no way a food that I’m not allowed to have, but normally I eat pb2, which has more protein and less sugar/carbs than regular peanut butter. The other day when I was cooking, I decided to use actual peanut butter in my stir fry. And let me tell you, it was heaven for my tastebuds. I had an overwhelming urge to dip the spoon into the jar and lick it clean. So I did.
The cravings didn’t stop there. Even today, as I was taking a bath, all I could think about was getting to the kitchen to cook supper and once again enjoy a spoonful of peanut butter.. I’m not quite sure why I’m having these cravings, but all I keep thinking is that peanut butter is god’s gift to civilization… And I’m so incredibly thankful for it. Ha!
Most people wouldn’t think anything of that simple spoonful of peanut butter, but I have been beating myself up about it for days. I keep thinking “Omg, I did NOT need the extra calories..What have I done!” I know that seems overdramatic, but when you have this negative relationship with food constantly in the back of your mind, every extra little bit seems like the end of the world.