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Let’s Talk About Sex: How To Deep-Throat

Ok, ok..This is one of the most commonly asked questions sent to my inbox, so today is the day we have this talk.

Take a breath, sit back, and enjoy the ride;)

For those of you who don’t know what it is, deep-throating is “the sexual act in which a person takes their partner’s entire erect penis deep into their mouth and down their throat” if we want to get textbook exact about it. The biggest issue girls have with deep-throating is the ever annoying gag reflex. Unfortunately I, along with most women, have a sensitive gag reflex. It’s important to know the proper way to go deep, because no dude wants a lap full of vomit. That’s not very cute.

My first tip is to relax. Relax your body, relax your throat, relax your mind. A lot unsuccessful deep-throating happens because the person panics and tenses up. You need to BREATHE. You say “how can I breathe when there is a dick blocking my airway?”. You breathe through your nose, that’s how. It’s really that easy.

Another obstacle that can get in the way of successful deep-throating, is your angle. The easiest way to make sure there is a straight shot right to your throat is to lay flat on your back with your head hanging slightly off the bed. The guy can then stand straight above you and go at it. The only downside to this position is the fact that you might get a hacky-sack to the forehead. But if you’re into that, then this position is for you!

Sometimes guys can get a little forceful during the act.  They will usually try and get you to go deeper by using their hands or trapping you between a prop. It’s only natural to want to bite down when you are having something rather forcefully shoved down your throat. But for the love of God, please keep your tongue flat over your bottom teeth. No guy wants you to accidentally bit down on their tender log. 

Deep-throating isnt for everyone.. So if you try all these tips, and still nothing works for you, here is one last tip that might just save you a lot of the stress over the matter.

Take your tongue and press it against your soft-pallet (the top part of your mouth right before your throat) and as the guy thrusts, it gives the illusion that he is as far back in your throat as he can go. Jokes on him, he’s not, and it feels just as good for him, but you won’t gag!

That’s all for now folks. Feel free to email me any questions or topics you’d like me to cover to

Your Right As A Woman To Cum Last!

Ah, this is something I think about that men have completely wrong. Sure, ladies first is a typical gentleman gesture, but that doesn’t always have to apply to the bedroom as well. For way too long, women’s orgasms are seen as merely foreplay. In that way it makes it seem like women’s orgasms are less important and are just a “warmup”before the actual ordeal. This is incredibly frustrating for me..I’m a woman that prefers intercourse vs. having to lay through lengthy foreplay sessions just waiting for the real show to get on the road. 

Think about this.. How do you feel after an orgasm? Tired. Relaxed. Relieved. Wouldn’t it be nice to be able to just lay down and enjoy the after-effects without the obligation to reciprocate during your afterglow. The answer to that should be a solid “yes”. How come men are typically the ones that get to cum last? It’s your right as a woman to have that option as well. Seriously, get your partner off first and THEN make sure you get the last horrah. You will thank me later.

Happy fucking:)

Music I’ve Written In The Last Year…

NOTICE: I am NOT a voice sucks…but I like to write music so…feel free to check out my stuff

Below are links to all of the songs I’ve written in the last year.

Let Me Move On: CLICK HERE

Love Is Good Enough: CLICK HERE

Puppet For You: CLICK HERE

Broken Melody: CLICK HERE

I Don’t Know: CLICK HERE

That Little Lie (Teaser-Unfinished): CLICK HERE


I Still Wonder: CLICK HERE

Can You Hear Me? (Children of the Holocaust): CLICK HERE

Take Me: This is the first song I ever performed live anywhere.. LISTEN TO MY PRE-PUBESCENT VOICE!!! HAHAHA: CLICK HERE


Emotion (Because I dont have a better name):  CLICK HERE


If you’re into Shakespeare, here is my video Macbeth final project haha! CLICK HERE

Peanut Butter Is God’s Gift To Civilization…

Let me start out by saying.. I have been on a low-carb, low-sugar diet for approx. 6 months. My daily food intake consists of 90% vegetables, 8% meat, and 2% fat. So, I eat pretty healthy for the most part…

During my life, I have always heard of people “craving” certain foods. Like craving it to the point that they are just not satisfied with anything until they have that food. I have never actually had a craving for anything food-wise, until now. I never understood that absolute need for food. But, for whatever reason, for the last week I have been craving peanut butter. And I mean that I fucking NEED it. Lol. Peanut butter is in no way a food that I’m not allowed to have, but normally I eat pb2, which has more protein and less sugar/carbs than regular peanut butter. The other day when I was cooking, I decided to use actual peanut butter in my stir fry. And let me tell you, it was heaven for my tastebuds. I had an overwhelming urge to dip the spoon into the jar and lick it clean. So I did.

The cravings didn’t stop there. Even today, as I was taking a bath, all I could think about was getting to the kitchen to cook supper and once again enjoy a spoonful of peanut butter.. I’m not quite sure why I’m having these cravings, but all I keep thinking is that peanut butter is god’s gift to civilization… And I’m so incredibly thankful for it. Ha! 

Most people wouldn’t think anything of that simple spoonful of peanut butter, but I have been beating myself up about it for days. I keep thinking “Omg, I did NOT need the extra calories..What have I done!” I know that seems overdramatic, but when you have this negative relationship with food constantly in the back of your mind, every extra little bit seems like the end of the world.

Let’s Talk About: BDSM- Who is doing it??!

Hello. Welcome to the deepest, darkest part of my blog. This is where we talk about BDSM and all things related.

Note: If you have any questions or want to talk BDSM, comment below, or feel free to add me on (its_mistress_b) or feel free to shoot me an email ( If you choose to remain anonymous, that is completely fine. I will never share your name or email address with anybody else. I understand it’s somewhat of a sensitive topic. I receive 100s of emails a day, and will usually get to your email within 48 hours. 

Ok, onto the reading…

First off, if you do NOT know what BDSM stands for, then here is a short explanation. 

Bondage-Dominance/Discipline-Sadism/Submission, Masochism

A little history on this.. BDSM dates way back to Ancient Greek times. Ancient art thoroughly depicted Kama Sutra (300AD) and public spanking along with other erotic activities. Even 18th century European brothels specialized in dominant women “punishing” eager and deserving submissive men with floggers for sexual enjoyment.

Studies show that people who engage in BDSM tend to be more extroverted, more open to new experiences, more conscientious, more secure in their relationships, more sexually adventurous overall, less paranoid about other disliking them, and less stressed.

Alright, now it’s time for statistics.. Who’s into what? 

Tell their partners what they want during sex:  



Share their sexual fantasies with their partner:



Use Blindfolds Regularly:



Have a safe word:



(Note: I was absolutely astounded by this statistic.. It’s important to have a safe word in all sexual relationships… One that doesn’t ruin the mood, but let’s your partner know that you don’t like what is going on. SO. VERY. IMPORTANT.)

Alright, let’s break it down by genders now.

Like to be bitten erotically:



Men have always been seen as the most dominant gender since the age of time, but the truth is, in the bedroom.. That isn’t always the case.



Submissive-33% (YES, a third of men like when the woman takes charge.. Meeeeowwww!)

Switch- 18%


Dominant- 8%

Submissive- 75%

Switch- 16%

Did a little filming today, please watch ⭐️ Short Film: Depression, Anxiety, Self-Esteem, and Addiction ❤️❤️❤️ PinkRainProductions

Turn up the sound! ❤️❤️❤️ 

If video doesn’t work.. Click HERE

I’ve Got A Girl Crush.. I Hate To Admit It, But…. It’s Hard Being Bi-Sexual In A Straight World

The Forbidden girl-crush. The crush you have that is completely wrong on so many levels. The crush that you cannot tell a single soul about because you know that they would just laugh in your face. The crush that you are embarrassed to have because you’re not quite sure how it came about.. Especially when it come out of fucking nowhere. That crush that comes about when you are sitting next to an “unattainable”(The name for the people that deep down you know will never be able to reciprocate) and you just look up at them and think, “God damn you are fucking beautiful.. What it would be like to fuck you.” *blushes* That is a real thought I have had before. I have literally experienced the trifecta of all unattainables in the last year. Married. Straight. And Co-worker. (Authors Note: I would like to buy a vowel and add “virgin” to the list of obstacles. Not unattainables, but obstacles… I can charm the pants off anyone. MOTHERFUCKING PUN INTENDED)

*I literally just laughed out loud at myself.

Anyways, I always fall for someone under one of those categories… Like… It would be nice to fall for a nice single gal or gent.. But unfortunately, that’s not how most of my crushes end up. I say “crush” because in these situations, I’m not looking for a relationship. I’m looking for quality time or sex. You know, every time I start to feel that godforsaken feeling of admiration for someone forbidden, I try to shut that shit down right away. Notice I said “try”. The next thing that I do is mentally overcome the “obstacles” that separate me from that person being attainable. And by attainable, I don’t mean available…I mean willing. So here is my thought process on it whenever a GIRL-crush comes about. I’ll talk about boy crushes in a later blog.


This is the hardest of the obstacles to overcome. Some women are so set in their ways that the thought of even trying anything with a woman is definitely not a possibility. I don’t care if you are single, married, divorced, etc.. If you are curious about chick-sex…experiment, it can be a lot of fun if you trust the person you choose to engage with. The truth is, most women have the curiosity but not the opportunity to try things out. Bottom line though, if someone identifys as “straight” thats where the crush has to stop, because nothing will come of it. This is the hardest realization to come to. It literally hurts, when you want something so bad. Onto the next obstacle.

This obstacle is somewhat difficult to overcome. If someone is married, sometimes (not usually), they might have an open relationship. And if they don’t sometimes in heterosexual relationships, the male doesn’t mind if the woman experiments with another women. You know.. Dudes and the whole girl on girl fantasy.. Lol. I’ve known people that are ok with the woman being with another woman as long as the man is still in the room. Which is a double plus for me.. I get to have fun with someone’s wife or girlfriend, and then there’s the whole exhibitionist aspect of it. Onward ho.

Co-Worker or Professional Relationship

This obstacle is the least hard to overcome, mostly due to the fact that if both people are willing, it’s an easy secret to keep. I once “dated” a co-worker in a workplace that strictly forbid employee relationships. In fact, the better way to explain it point blank is… I was sleeping with my manager. We kept it a complete secret for many months, and only agreed to admit to it once we were both no longer working there. However, I have slept with people with jobs that I can NEVER tell a single soul about. If someone decides to breach their job contract in the aspect of having sexual relations with co-workers, employees, clients, or patients, I am bound in secrecy. Lucky for them, I’m great at keeping dirty little secrets. 

Some people would consider age a determining factor. I used to, so I get it.. But I no longer do. As long as both parties are willing, why the hell not.

In conclusion.. I understand that my ideas on the matter are a little warped, but thats truly what it is like to be bi-sexual in a location where not many people are willing to admit that they a gay, bi, trans, etc. But let me leave you with this little thought. People with obstacles are much more fun to pursue than the people that are willing from the start. Hehe!